She who shall remain nameless.

Goooodbye, Jiro Manio!

2009-06-28T15:04:00.000-07:00

I loved him in Magnifico. And he was quite splendid in Tayong Dalawa. Too bad he got kicked out of the Star Magic batch. He was one of the very few actors that actually had TALENT.

I REALLY WANT THIS!

2009-06-26T21:24:00.001-07:00

And once I get it (I'm pretty close too; a shop I'm friends with is selling this exact necklace for $10 shipped), all I need is a guy to give the key to. Wahah. But as if anything like that will happen any time soon.

Oh well, a girl can dream I suppose...

REST IN PEACE

2009-06-25T16:01:00.001-07:00

I grew up listening to your music.

You're an absolute legend, and you always will be.
Music will never be the same.

RIP also to Farrah Fawcett, who died today.

And my friend Richard Roque who passed away a few days ago.
I'm sorry I wasn't able to say goodbye, and I regret us not being too close.
I'll miss you, and we love you.

THE SONG I DREAD HEARING ON THE RADIO THE MOST:

2009-06-19T17:01:00.001-07:00

"Halo" by Beyonce.

It's too overplayed.

really interesting question left in my question box:

2009-06-19T08:00:00.000-07:00

Would you ever consider dating a guy that didn't know how to dress?

Really good question. Okay I haven't really experienced this yet, so hm. It'd be really interesting and different on my part, that's for sure. Would it be really shallow to admit that I wouldn't want to be with a guy that was completely clueless when it comes to style? Hahah. It does seem shallow now that I read it over, but still! I think that presentation is incredibly important. I mean, I'm all for days of comfort where you don't feel like dressing up, because I'm also like that some days. But it's nice to be beside a guy with style once in a while. He'll be a lot cuter to me. (:

Questions, comments, concerns? Leave it in the question box to the right --->

I'd love to hear other peoples' opinions. Especially CATH'S! *wink*

I WANT MY FUCKING DRIVER'S LICENSE.

2009-06-19T06:44:00.001-07:00

Horribe lighting. But it's an Asian store. What do you expect? :P

2009-06-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

2009-06-16T07:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my last day of school. Now I am finally starting to grasp this concept: I'm a senior. Well, a rising senior, but still. I really regret not getting the grades I know I deserve. For the past two and a half years, all I really cared about was getting mediocre grades in my classes and what I should wear the next day. I really, really, really, really regret it. And because of my laziness, I've been kissing an unbelievable amount of ass. I feel so guilty and I don't want to be a failure, especially to my parents. I know I'm not very far behind, and I still have a while to raise up what needs to be raised up in the fall, but... I'm just sad. I'm going to get straight A's next year. Watch me. :) I went to the Norview graduation for Leeroi, and it sucks that he didn't graduate with honors just because he had a 3.18 and not the exact 3.2. That's some bullshit, really. Just because there were originally 125 people graduating with honors, they wanted to be cheap and raise it up to 3.2 for being an honors graduate. Lame.

Oh and another thing: isn't it really funny when boys that break up with their girlfriends run back to you? Pathetic'ness!

2009-06-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

I see you through those bloodshot eyes,
there's a cure: you've found it.

2009-06-11T13:40:00.000-07:00

I failed Math Analysis for second semester. It's okay, though. I was listening to The Climb by Miley Cyrus and reading inspirational stuff on Oprah and praying. I will do better in the fall.

...Starting with DISCRETE Math, and not that bullshit Analysis.

2009-06-11T13:39:00.000-07:00

2009-06-04T15:51:00.000-07:00

The paradox of our time in history is that we spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses, and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees, but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgement, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch tv too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life, not life to years. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men, and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway mortality, one night stands. Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember to say I love you to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all, mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind. and always remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away.

I failed my Analysis test...

2009-06-02T16:30:00.000-07:00

...with a 63. I was very sad. Oh well, at least I was close.

only the most annoying.

2009-05-30T05:42:00.000-07:00

to-do

2009-05-29T18:51:00.001-07:00

- Do those stupid reading guides for Physics, and try to hunt for some labs.
- Study for Analysis test. It's one of the easier things to learn, so that's good. But still.
- Finish designer house project for Fashion. Yay, Karl Lagerfeld!
- Add a few more things to my lecture for AP Psych (I was half-mad and half-relieved that I didn't present today).
- Buy yet another case of Evian. And some Pirate's Booty for study hall.
- Find something cute and hot pink. I don't know.

ANOTHER CINDERELLA STORY

2009-05-28T17:29:00.001-07:00

I feel pretty accomplished right now. Just finished the major part of my lecture for Psychology. I personally think it's stupid, but maybe, just maybe, people will like it. I'm more concerned about what Ms. Peoples thinks about it though, DUH. But hey my lecture represents me, so I guess that's good. LOL. Whatever.

Anyway, I had an awkward day today...

SOL scores

2009-05-26T14:04:00.000-07:00

VA/US History: 562
English Reading: 565 (or something like that)
English Writing: 600 :o

How I got a perfect score on writing, I do not know hahah. At least I don't think? The prompt was REALLY stupid. We were asked to write about an important decision we had to make, or one we'll have to make later on down the road. Something like that. And I can't even remember what I actually ended up writing about. The whole time, I just sat there (for 4+ hours haha), gathering ideas in my brain. I wrote at least 10 rough drafts, but I still felt like nothing I had was remotely close to good. Ended up writing a little something in 20 minutes, and voila. 600 material, apparently.

2009-05-24T16:23:00.001-07:00

MY HAIR'S SO SHOOOOORT. AND BROWN'ISH.

But I like it.

What I really need...

2009-05-23T13:14:00.000-07:00

...is a mutual addiction.

Gonna have my hair cut tonight by a friend of my mom and dad's. Apparently, I'm the spitting image of my father. Just great.

Currently in the process of reading three different novels: The Glass Castle (again), Jane Eyre (for English), and The Devil Wears Prada.

writer's block

2009-05-20T13:38:00.000-07:00

For AP Psychology, we have to make our "last lecture". If we knew that we were going to die, how would we sum up all the things that are important to us in 5 minutes via lecture?

I don't know what to say, and it makes me really mad! I could mention family, but that is SO cliche. Thanks to Dalton, I'm going to use CLOTHES as mine. ahahaha. It sounds so materialistic and all, but oh well I don't give a fuck, at least I've got a little bit of something to work with. Now that I'm actually sitting and thinking about each topic and each subtopic, I have writer's block once again. Instead of working on my powerpoint and lecture notes, I'm sitting on my ass bidding on eBay. At times like this, I wish I had someone to help me. It sucks.

2009-05-19T18:11:00.000-07:00

I can never take decent pictures.

wearing: some denim shirt I found around the house (Isaac calls it a tacky, but really cute shirt haha), a dress from XXI that is surprisingly still in tact, and I forgot where I got the belt. I wish you could see my boots and socks (the signature knee highs lol), but you already know the deal.

are there NO guys like THIS in Norfolk?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

2009-05-19T18:07:00.001-07:00

No? I didn't think so. This angers me so much. He's like, RIDICULOUSLY cute, and is it not enough that the way he dresses makes him even more desirable? I stalk his Lookbook. >:D<

Oh wellllll. Off to watch House, though I should be doing my homework instead. I have a math quiz tomorrow. Fucking shit.

the anticipated class ring!

2009-05-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

i wish i knew how to paint.

2009-05-17T15:14:00.001-07:00

Oh well. Off to sit in front of the TV.

2009-05-17T15:11:00.001-07:00

2009-05-17T07:31:00.000-07:00

Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now

typing in paragraphs is so overrated.

2009-05-15T14:07:00.000-07:00

- I think I'm able to get everything I need out when I use bullets. Enjoy my unnecessary random'ness.

- There's something so disgusting about George Condo's art. I think I'm in love. I had heard his name plenty of times before, but I never got a chance to actually see some of his work until I scanned through Influence by the Olsen twins (great ass book, by the way).

- We're going to be reading Jane Eyre (!!!!!!!!!!!!!) in English. I'm incredibly excited seeing as how people keep raving about it and I've always wanted to take a look-see.

- Speaking of English, we watched The Secret Life of Bees in class today. I cried to myself hahah. But really, if the movie was that good (AWESOME CAST, btw. Dakota Fanning has really grown up, though she was way too young looking to be locking lips with whats-his-face), then the book should be even better. I want to read it now. Okay okay, I just plan on indulging myself with lots and lots of good books. Anyone have any recommendations? I'll read anything, basically. At the moment I have yet to finish Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk, and on the side, I'm re-reading this one Clique book (ehmahgawd). It's super tween, and I can't believe that I was a fan of the series just last year. Embarrrrrasssing.

- I think I'm finally going to dye and stud my old ballet slippers. Jasmine has convinced me to do so. I really hate seeing them hanging on my door, plain and unused. I'm thinking of taking a few classes at Lakewood or something over the summer just to keep myself busy. I wonder if I'll be able to wear the dyed/studded slippers, or maybe they'll make me buy a whole new pair? I hope Miss Tammy is still there. She was always my favorite.

- My mom told me and my younger brother to gather all the clothes and other junk we don't want/need anymore so we can box them up and ship them to the Philippines. As I was trying on this one crazy skirt I bought from American Eagle back when I thought I was white (identity crisis lol), I had an epiphany and transformed it into a high-waisted skirt. It worked! Although it's considered to be wayyyy too short for school, possibly even hooker material, I decided to pair it with one of my old black dresses. It doesn't look half bad. I threw on a plum colored cardigan, some knee-highs, and my fringe boots, and had my own little vain girl photoshoot. I'm still a little nervous about wearing it to school, though. I think it's still a little short even with the dress underneath?

- Yesterday when Chelsea and I went to the bathroom, I told a girl I liked her Oxfords. I didn't mean for that to come out, I knew I should have said shoes. She just looked at me and laughed. When Chels and I left, she told me that the girl probably had no idea what I was talking about. *sigh* Lake Taylor girls... I'm not surprised...

- At lunch today, the penis game. Unforgettable. And in the lunchroom, "underage breasts", "titties", etc. Brady is a total riot.

- I'm desperate for a thrift day for tomorrow.

everything about this is so right.

2009-05-14T11:55:00.001-07:00

answering some questions...

2009-05-13T17:22:00.001-07:00

Q: i see you around school and i like your style. where do you shop?
A: Thanks. I actually shop everywhere. Honestly, it kinda frustrates me when people ask me questions like that, simply because I don't know what to say. I do shop everywhere, though. It's ridiculously easy to find stuff in the weirdest places, like Walgreens, and incorporate it into your outfit. But hey, the next time you see me, don't just stare (lol). Say hi or something!

Q: What's your ethnicity?
A: Isn't it obvious? ahahah. I'm mostly Filipino, but my dad's dad is a great mixture of things. My mom's family is mixed as well. My dad told me that I'm about sixty percent Filipina, and the rest is equally distributed between Chinese and Spanish.

Q: can you tell me how to make this one? lol this submit form sumtin :)))
A: Just sign up for an account, and they mention creating a form, or something like that. It's pretty easy, but they provide directions if you get stuck.

Q: in your opinion, what is love?
A: Love's love. I can't necessarily put it in words at the moment, seeing as how I myself have yet to experience this. But when I know, I'll be sure to get back to you. ;)

A: Do you miss me?
A: Depends on who you are. Joke! The site said the person that wrote this is from the Philippines, and there's only a few people I don't really like in the Philly, but I'm sure you're not one of them. SO YES, I do miss you, anonymous! ;)

I don't feel like answering other questions because they seem a bit cliche. There are a few that are perverted and disgusting, and the rest are a tad bit personal. But feel free to ask more.

Who I'd like to meet

2009-05-13T17:08:00.000-07:00

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

Thank you, Chuck. That just about sums it up right there.

sucks.

2009-05-13T17:00:00.001-07:00

I'm always reminded of the fact that no one in this world is perfect. We should appreciate and cherish what we have rather than clinging on to some stupid little fantasy.

2009-05-13T16:21:00.000-07:00

I don't usually go on Karmaloop, but I visited the site a few moments ago, and fell in love with their shoes. However, I feel that they don't have a good variety of heels...

2009-05-11T15:59:00.000-07:00

Taking my SAT on June 6th. I'm scared.
Had my Reading SOL today, too. It was pretty easy. Right when I got into class, I immediately grabbed a dictionary to look up Dissent (I'm so dumb - I forgot that I learned about that word in History) and a textbook to look up Allusion, seeing as how I forgot what that was during the test. Thank goodness I followed my instincts and chose the right answers for those questions.

AP Psychology exam tomorrow, then I've got a little break until my History SOL (aiming for a perfect score) and after that, getting ready for the school year to end so I can start seniority.

Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun.

2009-05-10T16:07:00.000-07:00

1. I really wish my computer would get fixed. I hate not being able to upload photos. I gotta figure this shit out and honestly, it's fucking frustrating.

2. I have my Reading SOL tomorrow and then I've got my AP Psychology exam on Tuesday. I regret not going to the remediation for Psychology yesterday. I need to memorize the theorists and the tests/methods each one would use. And on top of that, I suck at Biological Basis and Sensation and Perception. Oh no. Why do I have a feeling that the FRQs are going to be based on the shit that I know nothing about? How nice.

3. I love this new dress I bought at XXI. A total designer knockoff (I'm thinking DvF), but whatever. The point is it's cheap, and it's pretty. I bought my mom some slippers there, and I also got these pretty lace knee highs. They remind me of a pair I saw my grandmother wearing in a picture from the 40s.

4. I've got a new Michael Kors bag. I'd show you pictures, but uh, yeah. :(

5. Ever since I got home, I've been drinking Evian and watching House.

6. I cleaned and organized my brother's closets without being asked to do so. Brownie points. Too bad I haven't cleaned my closets and room yet.

7. There are people in our backyard extending our outdoor kitchen. I really hate our backyard simply because it looks like a junkyard. A dump. Truly screams: "Filipino family lives here". We still have this stupid "Merry Christmas" sign with Frosty on it out in the front yard. How pathetic.

2009-05-09T14:40:00.000-07:00

2009-05-07T12:45:00.000-07:00

Gerald Anderson and Jake Cuenca are really cute.

And tell me why the main topic of the day was Swine flu?

Sometimes...

2009-05-06T15:59:00.000-07:00

I wonder what life would be like without clothes. hahaha.

2009-05-06T15:53:00.000-07:00

Live life, proceed, progress.

UPCOMING DIY PROJECT

2009-05-04T15:57:00.000-07:00

Makes me wish I was still taking Ballet. These are badass!

recent purchases

2009-05-03T13:45:00.000-07:00

- dress and black patent ankle boots (they were $5.99!) at XXI Forever
- Yves St. Laurent Babydoll, my official signature scent
- yet another makeup bag
- some Gossip Girl inspired headband
- May issue of Nylon
- Orbit gum

So, my computer won't allow me to browse and upload photos from my computer. HELP.

2009-05-02T16:08:00.001-07:00

No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it at all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention.

2009-05-02T15:41:00.001-07:00

MY COMPUTER FRUSTRATES ME!

2009-05-01T16:58:00.000-07:00

Ridiculous. He's the most adorable thing I've ever laid my eyes on!

ring dance tonight.

2009-05-01T16:52:00.000-07:00

Junior prom, ah. Now half of me wishes I went, while the other half is still pleased and satisfied with my decision. Either way, I have my class ring. And I really like it.

I'll post pictures tomorrow. My computer is being really childish.

The photos of my last purchases I promised to post

2009-04-30T17:55:00.000-07:00

My guy friends joked me so bad when I wore those gold shoes on Tuesday. Leprechaun shoes, Saxophone shoes, Olympic shoes that some guy wore (Physics teacher said that haha), Wizard of Oz shoes, etc.

That is why I hate men.

The red wedges are so much cuter in person. I haven't worn them to school yet because I don't really know what exactly to pair them with. Besides, those would be, by far, the highest shoes I've worn to school. Going up and down four flights of stairs in those babies? Uh, I don't think I'm quite ready yet.

The floral pattern dress/shirt/cover up/light bathrobe? is also much cuter in person. It's got this lace detailing on the sleeves, and it reminds me of one of my favorite decades. Try and guess which one. I wore it as a dress on Monday with my fringe boots, and people liked it. But when I was washing it, I noticed a tiny little slit in the back sleeve. It's okay, I'll sew it and it'll be as good as new.

Don't be a prude. Go to a thrift store. We're in a recession.

2009-04-30T16:43:00.000-07:00

Felt like dressing like the girls at my school. Hah.
But the little jacket was a bargain at only $4.99. Oh yes.
And those boots? I try to incorporate them with my outfits... every single day.

I'm running out of clothes to wear - slowly, but surely.

Rue 21 dress, Sears jacket, Target knee highs, Target boots

2009-04-30T16:41:00.000-07:00

I got a 31 on my Analysis quiz, which I'm pretty happy about, considering that's the highest I've gotten so far on a quiz. That's sad.

Anyway, I'm excited for tomorrow. It's Friday, and I get my ring. Never thought I'd be so happy about a thing like that because I used to think that class rings were so boring and cliche. Oh well. I just hope I don't get disappointed, because every time I seem to get excited about something, I end up coming home upset.

I just want her shoes.

2009-04-29T16:15:00.000-07:00

Lady Gaga indeed. Dahahaha. A little Filipino humor.
But really, her shoes look awesomely awesome + ridiculously painful. I like.

eighteen candles

2009-04-29T14:03:00.000-07:00

Chelsea Rae Aguilar, happy 18th birthday!

Buy me a pack of cigarettes? Thanks!

2009-04-29T13:50:00.000-07:00

Productive is moi at the moment...
- Did my Physics homework online about three times. Got an 80, and I'm happy with that.

- Graded and re-wrote my FRQ for Abnormal Psychology and Treatment. Got a 5/8 (according to my grading, and not the teacher's), so I just decided to use the rubric and re-write it to get 8/8.

- Filled out the registration for the SATs. Hopefully Emily and I get into the same testing site (Granby, and not ODU where I will get lost for sure) so she can give me a ride over there.

- I want to check my grades online so I can check what I'm missing in Physics, but I know that I'll end up looking at the grade I got on my Analysis test, which was pretty bad, I know for sure.

- After my teleserye on The Filipino Channel, I'm definitely going to do that page of homework I'm missing in Analysis. I don't want to be super stressed at the end of the year, trying to make up a boat load of missing assignments.

I'm looking forward to getting my ring on Friday at lunch, though I can't help but fear that there's a mistake on it. Hopefully my name isn't spelled wrong, because my mom said Mr. Dobranski called me Prazell. Oh no. I'm trying to think positive thoughts, though! At least we're on the V.I.P. list because we paid it all in cash... And I'm really glad I'm not going to ring dance. When I was younger, I said I would always force myself to attend, but hey, look at me now. I think these things are a bit overrated, anyway. Even though the venue (Founder's Inn - I didn't know we could afford that) is nice, I don't really know anyone else that's going. Why waste my money on some expensive gown that I'll just end up wearing to a one night affair that doesn't last very long? See, my point exactly. I'll just go to prom next year. I promise. With a date, or without one, I'm going.

Oh, and at this very moment:

2009-04-28T11:54:00.001-07:00

- Yolpait yougurt. Mmm, strawberry.
- The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks
- http://seaofshoes.com (I have never really been jealous of a person before. But that all changed when I started being an avid reader of her blog. Now I believe my life has no meaning. I'm going to slit my wrists now.)

So I'm in kind of a weird fetal position at the moment, seeing as how I'm multi-tasking.

Hypothalamus

2009-04-28T11:26:00.000-07:00

is acting up. I'm hungry as shit. This happens everyday. I only have breakfast, I'd rather not touch school food so I don't eat lunch, and I have dinner. Then the same thing happens the next day, and the next day, and the next day, and the next day. I'm so predictable.

Anyway, I get my class ring on Friday, which I'm surprisingly excited about. But then again, this is just a reminder that I'm almost done with high school. That scares me to death.

Viva Vena Cava

2009-04-27T17:22:00.001-07:00

Once I'm done with all the shit I need to do, I'm so making a Vena Cava t-shirt dress. haha.

A few random things on my mind:
- So worried about my Analysis quiz tomorrow. I'm starting to give a fuck how I do in there now.
- I love my plaid William & Mary nightgown, though I have no plans on attending that school (not like I could ever get in, anyway).
- I'm starting to become a penchant for my dad and uncle's button ups. Especially the denim ones. I just have to find stuff to wear them with.
- I need to get my camera from my mom. She hid it.
- And speaking of my mom, I think I want to see Rod Stewart in concert with her. I don't know.

2009-04-27T13:51:00.001-07:00

Working on my power point for the Coleridge poem. And in the background, I hear Law and Order: SVU... something about adult incest.

2009-04-27T12:10:00.001-07:00

TO-DO:
- Analysis homework and 5.4-5.5 quiz corrections
- Powerpoint for Samuel Coleridge's "Recollections of Love"
- SOL terms for US/VA
- AP Psychology crap from review book
- Send $20 and $9 to two different online boutiques. Been putting it off for a while.

Baby gets what baby wants.

2009-04-26T16:44:00.000-07:00

This weekend I was able to purchase:
- a great (and I really do mean great) pair of sky high cherry red wedges at Thrift Store City
- a thin printed button up dress. Circa 1970s, I believe. I actually thought it was a shirt, and I didn't bother to try it on because it looked big enough. It's really nice. And to think, I was going to put it back and get this cute Erin Featherston bunny print dress. I'm smart.
- paint, brushes, sand, and stickers for my store window display for Fashion. I'm really exicted to bring it in tomorrow.
- Hard Candy makeup. Hey, they were ridiculously cheap and I couldn't help myself (being the compulsive shopper that I am).

I'll post pictures sometime this week because they DO NOT deserve to go unnoticed.

Thanks to my tito and tita:
- I got a bag full of goodies from their shop!
- I've got $200. Half is in my wallet, the other half is with my mom. She knows how I am with money.
- We're going to Williamsburg on Saturday.

Tomorrow I plan on:
- Having a very good day.
- Seeing all sorts of un-originality put into the projects of my fellow classmates. I despise that class.
- Buying these beautiful BCBG heels. Because I finally have money!

Before I get off line (yeah, right), I'll leave you all with the following photos:

(Photos from Flickr)

Ah, who wouldn't love a good dose of ukay ukay? Think of them as consignment shops: Filipino style. Street markets, annoying as hell vendors, Going to Divi with two bodyguards practically attached to my hips, Tawad booths where I can never get a lowered price because apparently the "accent" I was had has vanished, the muggings, Ahhh. The Philippines.